TANIA JOY ANTONIO
It was one of those days. You know? Over tired! Extra Sensitive! (Which by the way is not a negative thing in my mind) As the quote goes “ Never apologize for being sensitive or emotional. Let this be a sign that you’ve got a big heart and aren’t afraid to let others see it. Showing your emotions is a sign of strength” I feel like the world has been programmed to feel like being sensitive is a bad thing. People say to you “Oh my, you're so sensitive!” Let’s stop taking that as an insult. Yes I am, and boy oh boy that day I was. And perhaps a little too sensitive, which in turn made me snappy (Which is a negative thing). I was lacking sleep and not because of my baby girl! I take full responsibility. I wake up to check on her; it must be a first time mom thing, or maybe it is just my thing. Regardless I interrupt my own sleeps. She does wake up a couple times throughout the night to eat still and now with teething even more. But easily put right back to sleep with some of mama’s milk. So back to “IT WAS ONE OF THOSE DAYS.” Rather than continuing my morning being extra sensitive and snappy, I decided I needed to get out and BREATHE! PRAY! GIVE THANKS! Usually the opposite of what people do when they are having a so-called “bad morning.”
Before Gemma-Love came into our lives, I probably would of let the day snowball and continue to be gray. But I have a very hard time staying down or miserable when I have the greatest blessing ever. So I often find if I get upset I just look at her, and man the day instantly gets brighter. I am so grateful to her for that. So I packed her up and headed to the temple. We have a Buddhist temple here that is very beautiful and peaceful. The last time I was there was with my sister-in-law, we lit incense and sent out our prayers to the universe. When your wishes and prayers are fulfilled and come to fruition, you should return and give thanks. So that’s exactly what I did. Gemma-Love and I arrived at the temple. I walked around with her showing her all the statues and beauty of the building. Inside the ladies working and one of the monks adored her. We were the only guests inside at the time. So I got the incense, headed out to the big pot full of sand, set some new intentions and prayers and released them out into the universe. You stand it up straight in the pot and leave it there. Let the universe do her thing. We headed back in, kneeled down and prayed and gave thanks along with praying for friends and family. Gemma-Love never even made a peep for the whole hour we were there. She just looked in awe at all the statues, colors and beauty that surrounded us. You would think with a six month old, going to a temple for some silence and solitude would not happen, but it did. And it was beautiful and sacred day for the two of us. Something I hope to instill in her is to always have an open mind and a compassionate heart.
I saw a post a friend made the other day that read, “Practice the pause. When in doubt, Pause. When angry, Pause. When stressed, pause. And when you pause, PRAY.” Great advice! Because really you can do that anywhere you want. Reality is we cannot always pick up and escape to another place to do that. What I am saying is that next time you are having “One of those days”, take the time and space you need rather than stay in a state of anger or upset. Take that time to pause, pray and give gratitude for the good things. I needed to get out of my space that day and take it somewhere else. And it turned out to be a beautiful morning for Gemma-Love and myself. I would Love to hear your ways of dealing with “One of those days” and turning it into a positive.
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